Rambling.

Apparently, my husband doesn't see me as who I am. For some reason (that was made VERY apparent today, might I add), he sees me as pretty much a damsel in distress, like I need to be saved.

I have never, and will never NEED (or want, for that matter) to be saved. Puh-leese.

This might be a new way of life, for both of us-me being married to the military, and him just being married and realizing it's NOT all about him anymore. There is definitely a power struggle. The military designates him as being the number one, you're supposed to do it all for your wife, blah blah blah, and I'm neatly listed as the 'dependent'. I find that ironic, but oh well.

We were doing my inprocessing today, and he pretty much acted like I was a little lost puppy with everything we went and did. Hello-just head me in the right direction, and I can find it myself. Or don't, I'll find someone to ask. I can get by without anything, without anyone to show me the way. This has never and will never be a problem. I'm not just independent though- I'm a go-er and a do-er. I move and shake things- if it's not happening for me, then I'll make it happen. I don't wait for it to drop in my lap and then ask 'well, what do I do now?'.
About halfway through today, I think he started realizing this. I'm not a follower. Sure, I'll follow when I have to, but put me in a leadership position, and I'm off and running. That's just who I am, and I don't know if he just didn't realize that, or it scares him that I'm not going to just sit around and wait wistfully until he comes home-I'm going to be out there busting my butt, going to school, volunteering or working, and traveling to kill the time.

Either way, I'm not changing.

On other topics, my internal clock is off, not because of jetlag, but because of how little daylight we have. It doesn't get light till about 7:30-8, and is dark about 5 at the latest. I miss the sun so much.

It's also cold over here, although I was told that today (45 degrees) is great weather. Then I explained that I was from California, and got this pitiful look. I just nodded and said 'I know. It gets worse.'.

WE'RE GETTING A STARBUCKS SOON!!!!!! YEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Funny how that tops my list of exciting things around here.

I talked to the University of Maryland rep here today, and called the office in Heidelberg and got that all taken care of. Now I pay my application fee and fill out an app to have an official evaluation, and then I get to take classes!! If it wasn't for my choice of doing a double major, I'd probably be done in about 3 semesters or less. However, I love self inflicted torture. So not looking forward to the stats class, writing, or history...so those will be the first taken this next semester. Lovely.

FRG MEETING!!! It's tonight. I can't wait!! I so want to meet other wives in this platoon. Ooooh goodie:) I'll be nice tonight, but anyone being a complete bitch by the next time is getting the cold shoulder and a thorough bitching out if it's taken out on me.

I also take my driving test tomorrow-FREEDOM, HERE I COME!!!

Ok, I'm going now...hope someone can make some sense of this ;)